इट्स time

It started by the sea, in a field of dreams
Where lovers and hearts were learning extremes.
But soon the winds blew and the veld was still brown
I came home to all strangers in my familiar town.
You’re surrounded by lovers that you can’t ever have
And the little pinch in your heart everyday makes you sad.
Because whilst everyone else has their coming out party
I can’t help feel solo on my straight ‘normal’ journey.
For freedom that they have by the opening of a door
I simply can’t have, keep my eyes to the floor.
The desperate antics that I try, I consider
Have unfortunately made me both blush and feel bitter.
With dignity and truth I try call out loud,
My parents should they know… can sense they’ll be proud
It’s a jealousy that I never thought possible
I mean let’s be honest it’s a life that, for some, is horrible
And yet my admiration for their bravery and truth
Is driving me crazy – they are so uncouth.
And sincere and beautiful and wise and free
It’s only with them that I can truly be me.
But the world I sense is waiting, or I am waiting for it?
So I’m stepping out big and taking my place in it.
with their courage and hopefully their sense of style
I’m going to try and not hide …be me for a while.
Will try walk with my head up and forgive my mistakes
They make u a better person - stronger personality traits!
Because, you see, my friends do it every day of their lives
And even though my weakness I cannot hide.
It’s time the walrus said
and I’m getting out of bed!
Because I’m 25
And it’s time to feel alive!